, how unspeakably humiliating! She was afraid, terrified of society and its unclean bite. She almost wished she could get rid of the child again, and be quite clear. In short, she fell into a state of funk.

她对与他的关系充满厌恶，甚至几乎要羡慕起格思里家不谙世事、未经雕琢的姑娘来了。她担心不已，生怕别人知道她跟守林人的事情。那样的羞耻实在无法言喻！她心生厌倦，满腔恐惧，对体面的生活充满渴望，即便像格思里家姑娘那样庸俗不堪，死气沉沉。如果克利福德知道她的私情，她简直能找个地缝钻进去。她对社会充满畏惧，生怕会被冠以淫妇的头衔。她甚至希望能把胎儿打掉，恢复自己的清白之身。总而言之，她陷入了极度恐慌的境地。

As for the scent-bottle, that was her own folly. She had not been able to refrain from perfuming his one or two handkerchiefs and his shirts in the drawer, just out of childishness, and she had left a little bottle of Coty's Wood-violet perfume, half empty, among his things. She wanted him to remember her in the perfume. As for the cigarette-ends, they were Hilda's.

说到香水瓶，那完全是她自己犯傻。她一时冲动，幼稚地往他抽屉里的几条手帕和衬衫上喷了香水，还把一小瓶半空的柯蒂斯·伍德牌紫罗兰香水塞进他的东西里。她希望他能睹物思人。至于烟蒂，则是希尔达留下的。

She could not help confiding a little in Duncan Forbes. She didn't say she had been the keeper's lover, she only said she liked him, and told Forbes the history of the man.

她忍不住向邓肯倾诉起来。她没说自己就是守林人的情妇，只是说很喜欢他，并向福布斯透露了他过往的经历。

"Oh," said Forbes, "you'll see, they'll never rest till they've pulled the man down and done him in. If he has refused to creep up into the middle classes, when he had a chance; and if he's a man who stands up for his own sex, then they'll do him in. It's the one thing they won't let you be, straight and open in your sex. You can be as dirty as you like. In fact the more dirt you do on sex the better they like it. But if you believe in your own sex, and won't have it done dirt to: they'll down you. It's the one insane taboo left: sex as a natural and vital thing. They won't have it, and they'll kill you before they'll let you have it. You'll see, they'll hound that man down. And what's he done, after all? If he's made love to his wife all ends on, hasn't he a right to? She ought to be proud of it. B